I'm really thankful.

Everytime I feel like giving up, and when my hard work doesn't seem to pay off, when what I worked hard for let me down repeatedly, crushing my confidence, self-esteem and hope, something, or someone appears and shower me with all that I needed to get back up and run again.

This race, the one that I have been running ever since I stepped into SP, is coming to an end, soon. I know I don't have to prove anything to anyone, but I want to, not for anyone else, but for myself. I need that sense of achievement that I could never have attained in Nan Hua.

I rarely hide things from people. What you see is what you get. One thing I tried to suppress from people is my dislike to be in people's shadows. Either you be the best, or be nothing at all. It's a very strong and competitive line, but I don't like such extremes. I welcome competition only to a certain extent. Actually in most cases, I don't even feel like competing. The competitiveness in me can be too overwhelming, too intense for my own liking.

I'm so full of contradiction, don't you think? haha.