I blame myself for what I'm doing.
It is immature, stupid and it looks like i am running away from it.
But I'm sorry.
I can't help it.
It's too painful for me to face all of you, you especially.
Maybe it's just my thoughts. But I don't ever want to see that image in front of my eyes, even though I can imagine it in my head.
I'm really sorry.
It's too much.