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eveline fell sick on the first day of school.
eveline thought she has swine flu symptoms but thank goodness there was no fever.
eveline is recovering from the normal flu.
eveline did her investment tutorial but forgets to bring it to school.
eveline despite the labour day holiday is going to school tomorrow to discuss psychology paper and activity presentation.
eveline despite still having a sore throat is going to kbox with psycho classmates tomorrow after the group meeting.
eveline is being so easily psychoed by her psychic friends. haha.
eveline is disappointed about something, but has decided not to voice it out for the sake of her good friends.
eveline is tired but is thankful for her busy life.
eveline is taking her SAT test on saturday but is very unprepared.
eveline wants time to move fast fast fast.
eveline just wants to be eveline.

Sony Ericson T707
THIS?

Nokia Xpress Music 5800
OR THIS?

=\. Both I like. Suggestions will be appreciated, thanks.

I fell sick on the first day of school.
useless right?
It first started when I kept on sneezing non-stop, then running nose non-stop, then my throat gets uncomfortable. @$(@#$*#(@$(@#$*^#()$)@($#. damn damn damn. =(.

They had this weird look on their faces
when I told them what I feel
and what I am doing.
I know it makes no sense.
Maybe, I guess.

But I definitely know one thing.
and thats all that matters right now.
Keep it inside, and let nature takes its course. =)
I have things to keep me busy anyway.

So after so many years, I still cannot understand why people has so many different faces to show to different people. Like why can't you just be the real you in front of every single person? not tired meh putting up that front? who are you trying to be what are you trying to prove man. stupid.
-.-

I was clearing out my stuff to make way for year 3 stuff and I found this letter that dates back to 11 feb 2006. The letter was given to me on my 16th birthday accompanied by this handmade "Friends Forever voucher that has no expiry date" by Mr Chai Si Aun.
We were sixteen, preparing for o levels, uncertain of the future, reluctant to move on and separate from all our friends. 3 years later, at this moment, did you see how much we have changed, and how far we have moved on?

Back then, friendships were being treasured, people are united, backing one another up in times of trouble. When I gave up council for softball, council friends were so disappointed and I had no courage to face them for quite some time. But they forgave what I did, because I felt that I had to do what I did and they understood. I screwed up countless times during a softball game, and blamed myself when we lost, when I felt that I let my team down, they never gave up on me, never blamed me, it was all for one and one for all. As a team, we won together, lost together, cry together, laugh together, pig out together. I think they're the only people who've seen me cried and laughed the hardest. Of course, not to forget the people since day 1. khris lee chinny serser and pangpang. I've got their backs and they have mine since 6 years ago. and true friends won't TELL you they will be there for you, they SHOW you, just like how they always did for me.

friendships. it used to be so heartwarming and real.

I was on the way home with Cec last night and I told her on top of all my normal course, I have a second diploma, I am taking SATs as well as taking tests for a driving license.
Then she asks me one question that I fail to answer. "Why are you stressing yourself out like this?"
Actually I knew why. Because that is what people are doing. To achieve as much as you can. I enjoy what I'm doing, and it gives satisfaction when you did something good, but satisfaction does not equates happiness.

Eliza and Xueying, we must jiayou ok, score well for SAT! It's in less than two weeks!

If you could choose, would you rather have a lot of achievements and no friends, or a lot of friends and no achievements?
I could tell you now truthfully, I would rather be the latter.
So what if you're up there? You're up there alone and nobody gives a damn about you.
So what if you're down there? You have loads of support from people who loves you. This is what matters.

I know what I lack. The fact is that I cannot bring myself to please people with things that they will be happy to hear. Unless I really feel that way, I cannot seem to understand why there is a need to 拍马屁。My parents have been telling me that it is important to give people face. Okay, fine, give people face, but also must choose whether the person is worth it or not right? Respect is to be earned, not given just like that. If every person deserves to be respected, than all the murderers and the sickos all deserve to be respected la?

Don't you ever judge me if you don't even know a damn about me.
Who the hell are you and why should I need your opinion. I don't need your 1 rupiah worth.
I give you my one cent worth. If you don't have anything good to say, you SHUT UP.

asshole.
shit you.

Now I understand why sometimes people don't want to share their secrets with others.
It's not because we are against them or doesn't trust them.
Sometimes people won't understand how you feel.
No matter how hard you try to explain, no matter how fantastic your vocabulary is, sometimes feelings cannot be expressed with words.

what a loser.
sian.
i wonder when people tell you they will always be there for you, how many of them actually mean it and able to do it? a handful maybe.

certain things can only be said to certain people. some things can only be shared with another group of people. but with them, i can share everything.

Our second trip will be Redang, yes?

100.

Maybe one day I'll understand, why apples are red and violets are blue.
Maybe one day I'll realise, how I could live my life without you.
Maybe one day I'll find out when I fell in love,
but today is the hundredth day since we said goodbye.

There's so much on my mind it's tearing me apart.
I'm trying to forget but you're still in my heart.
It doesn't really matter, whatever that's gonna happen.
Just let me be comforted by the sweet memories of our love.

I miss you.

It is during those train and bus rides when I am alone that I get to think about things.
Life as a whole, people, random things.
I am 19 years old.
People will say that I am young, and that there's a whole life ahead, etc.
But what if I die tomorrow?
There's so many things that I have yet to achieve. So many things that I want to see and explore and experience.
What if I die before I can accomplish all that I want to accomplish?

I told myself to live life to the fullest everyday, to treat every single day as the last day. Easier said then done. Life's tough, and it's only getting tougher day by day.
How nice if we can live without money, and everything is free, enjoy time with family and friends, no school, no work. Who invented school and work? lousiest idea ever.

I hate all the judgments.
Tired of all the nonsense.
Sick of all the noises.

But even though life's being hard on you, don't ever stop moving forward.

I like how laidback things are at the moment.
I wish it could always stay like this.
Don't want to go back to the uptight and full of tension life.
I sort of take things a whole lot easier right now, accepting whatever is there for me, minimum expectations, etc.
No challenge, I know. But I'm tired. It's not that I don't want to fight, it's because there is nothing worth fighting for at the moment.

There comes a time on life when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create them and surround yourself instead with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus solely on the good. Life is after all, too short to be anything but happy.

There will be a time in your life when you realise who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will. So don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.

厉害就好，不要假厉害。

聪明就好，不要假聪明。

不要画蛇添足，因为蛇没有脚。

Proven by two real life case studies.
Don't go and be smart aleck because it will backfire.
Understand?

Why so fast Monday?
In a way it's good because ITP is ending soon.
I have another good reason why I should go on to uni. School life beats work anytime. Bleah I don't want to work so soon.
Some of my friends and I have this plan to set up our own company. We'll go out and gain some experience working for someone else, then when we save enough we'll quit our jobs and start our own business. Big dream, but I sort of believe we can make it. I don't want to spend all my life working for other people.

Our perspective towards things change as we grow up.
What we used to believe in the past doesn't apply to the present.
The people whom we thought we knew then have changed as time passes by.
We assumed they were still the same, but in actual fact they have changed so much, without our knowledge.

Sometimes you say things that may hurt others in the heat of the moment.
But hey, people make mistakes all the time.
Then how many times are you willing to forgive them?
One chance? two? three? or are you gonna just forgive them again and again and again?
Because some people will take advantage of you and take you for granted.

I blame myself for what I'm doing.
It is immature, stupid and it looks like i am running away from it.
But I'm sorry.
I can't help it.
It's too painful for me to face all of you, you especially.
Maybe it's just my thoughts. But I don't ever want to see that image in front of my eyes, even though I can imagine it in my head.
I'm really sorry.
It's too much.

Congratulations! I have 9 modules this semester.
Namely,
1) Investment
2) Corporate Finance
3) Banking Law I
4) Credit Risk and Analysis II
5) Communication Skills for Business (3 hr tutorial omg -.-''', please let me have an interesting teacher)
6) Business Development (final year project)
7) Applied Psychology for career development and business
8) Applied Business Psychology Paper
9) Learning to learn (gem)

Last semester for Psychology! =)
Hit the books!

Life's not a bed of roses.
I need strength.

The hardest thing to do is to watch the one you love, love someone else.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the one who made you cry?
You turn around and walk away.
To the friend: I know it hurts, and the pain will be there for quite some time no matter how hard you try to hide. But time will heal you, I promise. And I'm around if you need to talk.

Something's wrong with my stomache - I think it's because of my nonsensical diet. Ohno. I need more sleep, I think.

When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you, and your best friend will be there.